30th day

Same like other day, I wake up at 4 o' clock. I was thinking of meeting her at college in the morning to tell her sorry for my wrong thinking and words which i have said and hurt her.

But, she had said yesterday that she will come at her time, i had forget that so keep on waiting her but the college bell gone so i went to my class with sad face :( I had forgot that

she will come late so had become sad and while meeting her at break my face was still sad though i had something to say so due to this she became angry, and went to her class. I was again

flopped because of my own behavior. I tried to make conversation with her but was so confused how to make her feel that i have felt sorry because of my own behavior so any how i had to talk

with her and tried. I settled the talk and returned home. My plan to give her surprise on saturday by taking her had also flopped. I had only just reached home when my mother left home for check up of her leg so i was saved today because i had reached home around 2 which was late.

I completed my word and called her at around half past two and read for my tomorrow's re-exam of economic which i became fail with 38 marks where 40 was pass mark and i was feeling angry with my

economic sir. I read and while reading i slept with book open and window too so i wake up at around 1 am due to cold and wrote this diary.....so my day was average....:)

29th day

Today, again i cried. I had told her that i will tell her tomorrow the thing which i had to tell her, i had mistakely told her unknowingly. I knew some misunderstand or something else will happen if i will say that in phone. But when i told her that i will tell tomorrow then she was upset an little bit angry, at that time i remembered one moment when i had told her that i will not tell that thing, that time she had asked me with more curocity than other thing which i hadn't known. she said me not to tell anything.. I was feeling sorry so i told her and due to this she said me not to think what i was thinking and not to touch her, but after she said that all, she thought that i am again hurt because of her. Yes i was hurt but not what she told, but because of how she told me....I really felt bad. Today also she said that she want break up...I was afraid to lose her and her heart. I settled that talk. I was out of my mind so i wrote this diary to feel good and slept around half past 7....The day was started with joys and ended with sorrows...........

28th day

We can't say that the person who seems happy have a happy life because he/she may not be happy in some sad, difficult, journey of life. So, don't judge the person by seeing his/her few moments which you have seen coz he/she may be pretending to be so. Its like that for me too but not exactly the same. Nowdays, I havenot reached home before half past twelve, so, i get scold at home. I don't know how, but I always miss my college bus to return home. Its surprising to me to know that I wake up so earlier that my college bus willn't be missed coz i always remember her and want to meet her. Study!, It is there always but actually when i wake up, i always take her name and i feel so good that i am going college though i go to college daily...... Today, i had went to one of my friends home. I was in deep thought about my relationship that what is going on, and how?, how am i spending my days.... At night also, i was not able to sleep so i had tried to call her, but, her phoned was switched off. I am feeling sleepy, so, Good night friends, My today was not so good than i had thought it would be..:)

27th day

Today, It was my result of 1st terminal examination of grade 12. I got my result better that i had, i was shocked but i am happy that i have got one subject below pass marks. After each i tell myself that i will now progress my study by giving maximum time but due to household works, my unstable mind, it never happens. so, I think that and laugh whenever i have that thinking in my mind. Its amazing, funny etc etc...
Today, i gave continuous miscall to her, and her mobile was switched off. I think she became disturbed by it.
In the evening, i cooked food because my mum is injured so she is taking rest and my sister can't do that. so, after cooking food, i started to work which i had left to go to take my result. I finished that worked, ironed my dress and ate food. Then after i watched one movie which i had copied in my laptop. I finished that movie around 11 PM and i slept by keeping alarm of 04:00 AM because i am not sure of my own sleeping time. Sometime i sleep less than 6 hours and sometime more than. So good night.............:-)...

26th day

I share my words with my friends, family, but specially with my sister with whom i always fight and quarrel a lot at my home. She is my one and only sister with whom i share maximum things and feeling of mine. I share with my friend also. I have something to share with you reader too that-"DON'T MAKE A MISTAKE DUE TO WHICH YOU WILLN'T BE TRUSTED".
I share with my mom also. Whenever i have something new things in my mind, something that have made me happy, something that have made me sad, I always want to share it with someone. But specially i want to share with my beloved one and i do also. Sometime while sharing my feelings and thoughts, i have hurt her and due to that, i had told her that i am feeling bad because of sharing her that thing, and she said that i don't think her mine so she asked me to leave..I was again hit by my own words so badly............

25th day

I always want to talk with her but due to some reason i always became sad but why, i don't know. I like to spend time with her whenever i can manage time. So, in college, we talk, and while returning home, i go to leave her to her home though i become late to reach to my home and while waiting bus, we talk and share our words. It is said that those who do true love, they shouldn't give rings, handkerchief, etc etc, so i didn't, but i had wanted to give her one ring.
While going to leave her home, many relative of mine have saw me with her so they tell me that she is nice but don't go like that more, otherwise something bad may happen. I also think for sometime but after college over, i forget that thing coz i want to go with her. I love to spend time with her. I don't care other. I love her so much and i think she also do but she doesn't show! But whenever she does something, for me, I really feel so happy. I always pray to god to make our relation strong.
I use to be sad and sometime i use to be angry with her but she thinks that i am hurt by her. Yes, she hurt me, but not every time. In love it happens, but I am really happy to be with her. She keeps on telling me to increase my height, i also tell my mom to take me to checkup for eating calcium but its too late for eating calcium, But, doctor have told me that i can still grow but not so much. So, i can't be as tall as she had wanted me to be. I am sorry for that...........

24th day

I like to chat with friends so i used facebook and mig33 and by using them i use to entertain myself and while i was bored, i used to use them so it became habit of using them. I use them in my laptop which was bought for my computer course which i needed from 11. I play games, but most of time i use to listen music. I used to use though i hadn't joined internet facilities in my home but now without internet. i don't like to use computers except for listening music and for some project works.

23th day

I like to play football. I used to go to play football with my friends of village in B.P.Sangralaye's playground. We practice football there everyday around 04:00 pm.
So, we had held tournament and today, was the final day of tournament. Our village
had 5 football team and team A and team B of my village had entered in final and i
was in team B. Team A won the game and we were cheering our village. We were happy.

22th day

Today, i am so sad and feeling bored. She asked me to leave her because she
thought that i didn't think her mine and she always make me feel embarrassed
which is not true. We were chatting on Mig and due to misunderstanding, it
happened. I don't want to make her feel like that. She asked me to leave but
i can't be happy without her coz since she replied me "YES", my life was running nicely and don't wanna lose her..... Next day i called her though i had no time
coz my dad had called some of guest and i had to help. I called and asked sorry
and settle our problem and that week our football tournament was going on. That
day was very hard to spend for me and i will never want to repeat that day again...

21th day

My day are going so interesting. I used to write small small poem.
Everyday in class and at home, I used to think and write a lot of poems.
All those thoughts and feelings which i have, that i used to pour in my poems.

In my grade 11 also, when my computer teacher gave me project of html, i made
one site of using my own poems.

20th day

I am so happy. My study started to improve and my mind always keeps on remembering
her and my heart was so happy to have a friend and be 2 heart, because i had two
two eyes, i had two ears and now i have two heart. I don't want let it be alone now,
so please god! don't take away my happiness. It's my life which i have to make delightful and my relationship will last forever............
-Racheet Shrestha

19th day

"Excess of everything is dangerous"
so due to this i was afraid to tell my girl that i love her so much that i can't express that feelings which i have towards her.
But one day i forced her to accept my proposal because she was broken by someone so she was out of that thinking and also had said
that she don't want to make such relation with anyone from now onwards coz she was afraid to broke her heart once again.
she also had said me that-'I have no such feelings to you". I was totally depressed by her but also i tried and said her to trust me only once,
make relation wid me and lets see what will happen.
If after that also no feelings come to you for me then you can do anything you want. I told her like that.
I told everything which i have for her.
And after some minute i called her back and asked her and she replied "YES"........

18th day

Today I am very happy and proud to be me because today I learned the 7 reasons to be happy thought the things are not perfect. And the 7 reasons are:-
1. Enjoying the present moment is a habit that takes practice.
2. Finding reasons to be happy now can benefit your future.
3. Tuning into joy can improve your health.
4. Consistent, long-term happiness depends on your ability to notice and appreciate the details; you can hone that skill right now.
5. Every day is a new opportunity to be better than yesterday; that pursuit can increase your self esteem and, accordingly, your happiness.
6. You can be who you want to be right now, no matter what your situation looks like.
7. Finding joy in the present moment—no matter how inadequate it may seem—makes a difference in other people's lives.

Though I am happy I want to suggest my reader that,-“Being happy doesn't mean that everything is perfect. It means you've decided to look beyond the imperfections.”-Racheet Shrestha.

17th day

Some people says that they believe in destiny but some says they don't. I was little hopeful to destiny specially when I am little bit in trouble or in Successful situation. But almost I don't believe and follow the destiny because I think that the destiny is made by us and make the destiny follow us. One day I watched one Hindi f film related destiny and after watching I was little inspired to believe in destiny because destiny had made love successful in that film. Does such things happens to you too?

16th day

When we people are interested in new things then we slowly forget the past if the new things are able to entertain and make involved in it. But if old one was better than new then we miss the old one at that time.
The same incident had happened in my life. I was so confused and still I have not picked the right solution for it. Friends, I am telling you the story of mine. Please help me by leaving comment in this post after reading this.

When my college started, every boys were little bit developed mentally so they were in search of girlfriend, because to make girlfriend, it was like fashion, But for me it was somewhat impossible to make girlfriend because i had no interest on such activities.
But one day I saw a girl in my college and had crush on her. I did friendship and tried to became close. Slowly my thinking changed me to think to change the friendship into a relation and with that thought I Proposed her but I don't know what had happened that day, she refused me and I was so depressed that started harming my study.
My friend were also started taking tension of me by knowing my status so they supported me and said that you are nice and you can get another one. They were my good friend so I accepted them and again return to my previous stage. It was very hard to forget and dream about her.
After some weeks I saw a next girl who was very beautiful and was of my type. I was so happy to see her. With her also I started talking and many of time we had been together. But the difference was the previous one was my good friend and she was frank and had shown a little bit interest on me but the new one was totally out of my thinking. She use to be nice but I used to be unsatisfied with her habit and feeling and thoughts towards me. I had reached to that stage that I couldn't spend a hour without her. I call her ever day but she didn't showed any interest on me. So friend, Please help me what to do? I can't live without her. She know that I love her but I don't know what she has feeling towards me and I am unable to express my feelings to her because of her non-caring habit..........................

15th Day

I like to write short poems. I started writing it after starting my class XI. When my colleges friends read my poem then they use to say me that are you writing this by your own effort or have copied from somewhere else. Then I asked them, why? And they said that the poem is written by a e mo-writer. So, I came to know that my creative actually works. So, since that day I have written more than 10 poems...........

14th day

Though I have work at home, I use to listen music, chat in computer and mobile sometime with my friends. I try to entertain myself doing such activities because if I have to go out then I am not able to go out of home before 10 am because up to 10 am i have to work at my home helping to father. And after 10 am it would be hot so i don't go out much at all. I use Mig33 for chatting in my mobile. You can download it by
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Its the 4.2 Version of mig33. Mig33v4.6.(This is in .jar format)

13th day

I listened the latest song of Taylor Swift i.e. Story of us. I was so emotional but the song was rocking. It was sentimental but not as much as the song which was singed by Greenday i.e. 21 Guns.

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I like to listen the music but i listen the pop and rock genre a little bit more than other. I use to listen music while reading, working and while sleeping too. If i think and try to know the habit then i think and feel myself that i am sick and crazy on music...

12th day

It was the day i listened the English songs whole day. I hadn't listened that much
songs in one day. Before that time, i used to listen Hindi and Nepali songs and music.
But nowadays, i am listening English songs and music. It has become more
than 1 month since i have been listening English songs and music and since that day my best singer is Taylor Swift. I like her all songs.

11th day

Today, I feel like i am a rose without thorns. why i don't know but i feel like my life is finished. I forget to laugh, i stopped roaming around friends, my curiosity and interest on my dream and aim decreased and i hadn't thought in my life that one day i have to face such problems in future.

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I came to know that this all problems are being raised due to my false thoughts towards love. I was blind in love. I thought that there will be no life without love coz i love to love and being loved when i used to love but now i don't think that without love we can process our life forward coz in life love is the most important and valuable thing which can't be disliked and hated by anyone in this world.

10th day

Today i was given punishment by my college because of my habit i.e. load shedding will be for 6 hour and when light comes then i use to use computer, and when light goes i sleep hole night. I mean that i use computer as long as light doesn't goes out and it was late night when i was using computer so i wake up late and became late for my college......

9th day

Today i went to my mama house because it had been very long time that i hadn't gone to my mama house. I stayed for some hour and returned back home at late night but also i enjoyed my journey form home to mama house and vice-versa. Its takes around 1 and half hour to reach to my mama house....

8th day

Today, it was holiday of my college. I have to attend one conference of finance near by tushal. After i wake up at 6:00 am, then i went to attend the conference and from 10:00 am to 6:00 pm i was in the Jyoti party palace. I was voluntary. I enjoyed being voluntary and serving the people who have attend the conference and we all were the member of . I met my family, friends and relatives and enjoyed a lot but i was unable to complete my note of my college and am feeling so confused and sad of being so careless...........................................................................

7th day

Today i am very sad. My all songs of my Laptop was deleted accidentally. I restored all of them from an utility software i.e. "Tune Up Utility", but it was renamed and replaced, when i played one song, it played another song. so, I have to again recollect and download my favorite songs. It was of about 7 Gage Byte. I was bored sitting without listening music so, i entertained myself with television..............

6th day

Today i went to my another friend's house after our college was over. I had work to do at home but he was forcing me too much to come at his home in college time. I was very much confused what to do. At last i went because he had get angry when i said that i have work, i am busy so i won't be able to come. We returned together and after reaching home i ate my food of morning. This was my time of this day.

5th day

Today I called one of my best and funnest friend of my college. I called him because he was forcing me that he want to come at my home and i too want him to come. He came after our college was over. We used and played Internet we also enjoyed food made by my favorite cooker i.e. My Mother. We enjoyed that day very much.

4th day

Today i learned different and very important amazing facts. First i hadn't believed by listening them but while searching in Internet, i god surprised to believe them and the facts that made me amazed are listed below:-

1.Chocolate kills dogs! True, chocolate affects a dog's heart and nervous system; a few ounces are enough to kill a small dog.

2.At an estimated population of 40 million, there are more than twice as many kangaroos as people in Australia. There are more than 50 different kinds of kangaroos.

3.It is commonly known that the Giraffe is the tallest animal in the world, sometimes reaching a height in excess of 18 feet. Along with it's length neck, the giraffe has a very long tongue -- more than a foot and a half long. A giraffe can clean its ears with its 21-inch tongue! Giraffes are the only animals born with horns. Both males and females are born with bony knobs on the forehead.

4.The largest bird egg in the world today is that of the ostrich. Ostrich eggs are from 6 to 8 inches long. Because of their size and the thickness of their shells, they take 40 minutes to hard-boil. The average adult male ostrich, the world's largest living bird, weighs up to 345 pounds.

3rd day

I have learning many miracle things from my student life. I have been followed by the steps of being loved my other people and my me too. I had never expected that i will come to know these things which can change my life in different way and now i am passing away my life with those things. I want to share some of them like "Don't damage the things which cannot be repaired by you like wise don't chop the trees if you cannot unchop the tree.
No one in this world is a person who don't have any enemy. There are many situations and condition where our enemies are being created by the nature and if we tried to be happy and qualitative person in the world then we are wrong coz we are thinking wrong thing. Every one in this world has at least one or more enemies so be using your cleverness in every moment of our life..........................................

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2nd day

Today i wake up at 4:30 am and get ready for collage coz i go to collage and my collage starts from 6:30 am and i have to reach to collage at 6:15 am so i take a bus at 5:30 am because it takes about 30 minutes to reach to park and again have to walk towards collage so i have to wake up earlier in the morning.
Today i read very interesting and knowledges things at collage. I met my friends and enjoyed all subject. All together there are 5 subject and after 2nd period our launch break will be. I also sang in collage today. My collage gets over at 10:45 am. I returned home and have my food of morning very quickly coz i was very hungry, so. My collage life is one of a part of my life so i enjoy it with full of desires and wants with friends. A home i use to read different books like story, Nobel, etc. and my time passes away like this. When i feel very bored then i sometimes watch television and sometimes just hanging around with friends.

1st day

Today is my first day in blogger.com so i am very happy to join and be a member of blogger. This is at 11 pm when i was writing this my diary. First of all i had made the blog of newlaptopnepal but i misused so it was suspended. But today my desire came in to blogger so i again created this blog named my daily diary and i am so glad and proud of me coz i am starting to write a dialy diary from today night onwards................

I don't know what is happening to me, but i am sure that i am utilizing my time and internet facility because before this i always use to spend my time by using facebook, yahoo, hotmail, mig33 etc but now i have wished that by using this blog i wish i would earn some money so please wish me luck thank you for reading this my first post...............
Now i feel that i am busy and can be a good human by utilizing the time with knowing the full value and importance of time and work because now i will work in this blog and may earn some dollor so please leave comments so that i can improve my diary............................